Hope...

Hope is the only thing we have at the moment, even if we do more then we can it's not enough. We hear everyday around us" I hope so" , but what we really want to say? The fact that we don't know because it doesn't depend on us, or that we aren't capable to do it. What's worse? Not being able to do something or not doing something because we don't want to...I guess the answer to this question is inside of us , we just have to find it....So what do you really want??!!!!!!!! just find the key.

Trip in Bucharest ...!

Ce aveam cel mai mult nevoie in perioada asta... de o mini vacanta in Bucuresti, alaturi de prieteni . O saptamana de relaxare si in acelasi timp distractie. In acest timp am reusit sa imi pun ideeile in ordine si sa decid ceea ce vreau sa fac fara influiente si fara stres. Este cu adevarat o vacanta pe cinste. Fara reguli de trezit diminteata, fara bataie la cap, te plimbi pe unde vrei si faci ce vrei, nimeni nu te retine de la nimic... poate doar "banii", asta ar fi singura problema. Deconectare de la problemele de acasa si in acelasi timp nu ma simt singura, pentru ca am persoane care imi amintesc tot timpul ca o sa fie acolo pentru mine. Sper sa intru aici la facultate, asta ar insemna cea mai mare schimbare in viata mea, viata, adrenalina, si in acelasi timp sa fac ceea ce imi doresc cel mai mult.

Povestea vietii mele va fi oricum diferita fata de cea de acum dar totul depinde de acest pas.. insa nu ajungi aici prin lene si sa nu inveti... asa ca mi-am propus sa incep sa invat si sa las totul deoparte, iesirile si distractia se amana pentru ca"dupa munca vine si rasplata" si rasplata va fi mult mai mare decat cea de acum. Aici imi doresc sa fiu, aici ma voi simti bine.....

To be continued.....

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If this is true, and it works thank you for reading my blog, i hope you liked it i will continue writing ....



19.august 2012

old 

"The worst feeling isn't being lonely. It's being forgotten by someone you would never forget."

In life when you help someone you don't have to expect nothing in return... you have to consider this a duty , something that will help you be a good person nothing more. You will always get hurt, you will always suffer. The persons you care about will go away maybe not today maybe not tomorrow, but that day will come. What hurts is that you know you tried your best, but is not worth it.. you end up to this conclusion once you wake up and see that everything you had work for is gone... or simply ignored ...there trust can never be gained again.. you lost your faith in them...so so just carry on with your life and leave all the memories in the past...because all that is left are just some memories , a shadow of what was once. I bless every person in my life who made this , because they made me be stronger and at the end i will be the one who will win...

Do...dooo,ddoo it's nowww or never!

What if we can do anything we want? how would that feel? like you are the most important person on earth... but is that capable? ... maybe in time , make with luck, make you will make it... but how? is the question we all ask ourselves ? it's something we discover in time.. time is the answer to all our problems....




"Feel the danger ahead of us !
be always sober , the danger
is in front of you any time.
It will struck, it will attack.
Sending shiver in you heart.
Lovely hollows start to walk
I awaken them from the dead.

Think of this like it's not right
Make a decision while you still can;
Go for it, make your number now
Show the world who you really are...
Don't waste your talent in concrete walls
Share it with the rest of the world."


After writing this poem i thought about this title"Closer to the edge" .... yes! 30 Seconds To Mars...
Enjoy!

Remember....

We all had moment when we listen to a certain song and got power to face all our problems in that moment...as i was listening to this song i remembered that it used to be a part of me once... but in time i descover a lot of songs that can describe me... this is one of my oldest let's say ... not the oldest one.... and the last i can say Hurricane...


I'll take everything from the inside and throw it all away
'cause I swear for the last time I won't trust myself with you

moments....

there are moments in life when you are important to someone... Everbody is important for someone else but the most werid question is "for who"? this answer can not be descovered when we want only in time... It's a question of time .... Feeling this way is what counts the most we feel loved ... We have moments when we feel alone and lost ...lost in space and in time... What we need more are friends... Real friends...but how do we find them?..... This will remain a paradox for me.... I wish to find this answer one day.......

Backgrounds...

"If i can do something now i would probably make a new fresh start... once all i had in mind was just a dream ,now...this became reality. The difference is that in your mind you can actually play with your characters and to whatever you want, you are "there God", but in reality you have to play by life's rules. We all want something to believe in that is what makes us stronger . But the question if will we ever have what we wish for?... is it even possible? In general yes because you don't know what life has planed for you. I wish i had been one of my characters in the story this way i could write what i wanted about them...But it seems i can't be, i'm the only one who can tell their story...

A dreamer is one who can only find his way by moonlight, and his punishment is that he sees the dawn before the rest of the world."
Oscar Wilde

Mda.... este unul din citatele care mi se potriveste ... nici nu trebuie sa mai explic acest citat daca il citesti cu atentie descoperi intelesul.. da un visator este patruns de noapte dar este omorat de lumina de rasarit... rasaritul semnifica realitatea... ceva in genul WAAAKEE UP!!! Speranta oricarui visator e ca intr o zi sa gaseasca puterea de a putea rezista in lumina..

"We turn to the dark side,
And cover the moonlight shadow
There is a hope for all of us
Wake up, embrace your fears and sorrows !"

time has come ...

time has come to make a change
deliver me into my fate
Along with a empty bottle i waste my days
shivers running in my veins.
time has come so stay alive
nature doesn't want me on it's side
i'm playing with my own destiny
still living by old habits .
Erase every last piece of my memory
making new ones it's not that easy
time has come to make a change
and i'm not ready,so i'm running away,
leaving all my fears in a closed cave
which will never be opened again

Time has come to make a change
i've made a decision... now...it's to late....

music part 3(german)!

Helloooo,

Dupa cum se vede in titlu in acest post voi posta numai melodii in germana sau formatii din Germania... imi aduce aminte de perioada in care aveam o pasiune pentru Germania , cand ascultam muzica in germana, filme, documentare, chiar incercam sa invat limba dupa niste cursuri audio.

A trip to Cluj!

A new adventure has awaken
But you my friend are stoned
Someone will send you an angel
Rest in peace and forever gone!

Mda... in ciuda scopului acestei calatori,a fost frumos, destul de interesant , tinand cont ca am fost o singura data si acum mult timp. A fost mai cald decat ma asteptam , poate chiar mai cald ca in Craiova cand am plecat. Drumul infernal de lung 9 ore cu trenul este egal cu o calatorie in iad mai ales cand esti nedormit dar am trecut si peste asta.
Orasul este superb, nu am apucat sa fac foarte multe poze, dupa cum am spus scopul nu a fost acela de a vizita orasul, dar am ales sa fac acest lucru daca tot am facut 450 de km ...

music part 2:D

Music part 2....

Goodbye!

As we walk towards the light
Danger is ahead of us,in the shadow
Along with the forces of evil
Across a tunnel without any egression.
I keep in mind a though, a picture
Of us together of those endless moments
You are my morphine,my only hope
Help me find my way towards the sun.

The secret is written with blood
the sacrifice we had made was not enough
i need to stay alive and to confront the sun
those bad memories will be forever gone.
I see myself behind this action
As i walk towards my destiny
That will make me feel alive
Getting nothing ,not even more time!
the time has come to say goodbye!
so now you have to say goodbye!

goodbye..goodbyeee!!

film!

Mr.Nobody

Un băiat stă pe peronul unei gări. Trenul va pleca în curând. Să plece cu mama lui sau să rămână cu tatăl? Nenumărate posibile vieţi depind de decizia lui. Atâta timp cât nu ia niciuna, orice este posibil. Fiecare viaţă merită să fie trăită.

Regia:Jaco Van Dormael
Cu:Jared Leto, Sarah Polley, Diane Kruger
Gen film:Dramă,Fantastic,Romantic,SF

something to relax....

Hellloooo,
Azi am sa postez cateva melodii pe care le-am ascultat in ultimul timp unele din ele sunt cunoscute de mult timp insa nu le-am mai ascultat altele doar ce le-am descoperit... in playlistul de azi includem formatii precum: Alice in chains,30 seconds to mars, Soundgarden, Audioslave, Nine inch nails, Rammtein, etc... vedem pe parcurs si altele...
In acest post am sa pun doar cateva din melodiile ascultate in ultimul timp restu le gasiti pe youtube le am puse in playlist:

http://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL5A3844E8D9D2FC54
http://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL2D489902F2B39C89
http://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL41B385FCBBF21966
http://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL3A84732676749450
http://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLD3F8AB51A7B2C412
http://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL30553E1737702479

Timpul...

In departarea ce ma asteapta apare un raspuns
Ceasul bate, timpul e pierdut ,
Caut momentul fericirii absolute insa nu-l gasesc
Clipa trece repede,de ea eu ma feresc.
Meditez asupra unei intrebari fara raspuns,
Praradoxal lumea dispare ca prin fum,
In departare vad ceata,trebuie sa inaintez
Riscul de a ramane blocat mi'l asum pe veci.

O laura aparte al vietii mele rasare,
Ca un soare nevazut de lumea fara zare,
Nu caut absolutul,de el ma'ndepartez,
Doar ideea de a patrunde in al noualea cer.
Idea ma incanta,timpul este pierdut,
Salvez tot ce se mai poate salva
Pana nu va fi prea tarziu.
Atat de tarziut incat totul va fi pierdut.

o raza, o lumina....

momente de speranta , in noapte eu astept
o lumina vaga se observa in departare
oare sa fie cunoasterea sau e trecatoare?
incep sa patrund in intunericul absurd
din suflet eu culeg tot ce e mai bland
nu caut fericirea,astept ca ea sa vina
imposibilul apare, mai stau aman o clipa.

Dispar sub semnul intunericului ,
cautand un loc departe de lume,
astept ca ziua sa treaca si sa dispara
dar puterea noptii e mult mai puternica.
astept cu nerabdare , o urma de speranta,
astept...
patrund...

un raspuns.....
un cuvant...

o raza ,o lumina......

Clipa..

Un lucru intruchipat intr-un necunoscut tinut,
Apare ca o umbra ,ne bantuie ca un trecut,
Incep sa apara norii deasupra noastra,
Astept cu nerabdare clipa cea de soapta.
Un dulce sunet al fericirii in inima se asterna
Precum un antidot cand e bagat in vena.
Astept cu nerabdare timpul sa treaca,
Sa vina clipa in care totul se transforma.
Trecut de vreme si de orice speranta,
Timpul nu s-a scurs insa, lumea nu asteapta.
Complicat si un total necunoscut apare,
Lumina din suflet si din gand acum dispare.
Se afunda in trecut,
Se transforma in praf purtat de vant;
Coboara usor pe pamantul ratacitor,
Adoarme si ramane usor, neclintit din loc.